Triple Agent

I got my new Rode mic! So that’s pretty exciting. I wanted to go ahead and shoot some video with it, but by the time I got a good take the sun had set so this is pretty dark. Sorry about that. You can also hear the cicadas singing along in the background!

This is a song I wrote about Severus Snape, from the Harry Potter Universe.  I think he doesn’t get enough credit for the complexity of the life he led as a bad guy-turned good guy-pretending to be a bad guy-pretending to be a good guy.  Lyrics below!

Can you hear the war? It’s coming.
The stakes are as high as can be.
Blood will be spilled, there are lives on the line,
and it’s all depending on me.
I must spread misinformation.
I must tell the truth as well.
My fate is sealed, there is nowhere to run.
I’ll see you all in hell.

This is my purgatory: to save lives by telling lies.
I don’t know who I am,
or what I’ve done,
or whether what we’ve won is worth the price.

One man, two jobs, three faces.
How can I keep track of my name?
Shall I be the hero, brave and bold?
Or the traitor–playing at games?
One hope, two lies, three choices.
When will this labyrinth end?
Shall I be a spy for the side I’m playing
or the one I know that I am?

This is my purgatory: to save lives by telling lies.
I don’t know who I am,
or what I’ve done,
or whether what we’ve won is worth the price.

I’m the master of deception,
but a pawn within your hands.
Why you trusted me after all these years
I’ll never understand.
But you take too much for granted.
These games will kill us all.
Has it ever crossed your brilliant mind
that I don’t want to do this anymore?

This is my purgatory.
To save lives by killing friends
I don’t know who I am
or what I’ve done
and I don’t want to do this…
anymore.